Monday, August 11, 2014

The many days - gone missing

Sunset at Fraser's Hill
Many things had came through me these few months. Some up, some down, all mixed and I was more at lost. Lost in many ways that I needed to look deep in myself to find myself again. All I can thank is Allah the Almighty that kept me on the ground and slowly made me crawl out of things. Scarred and battered but for the better I wish and I hope.


I went into a wall... hard, so hard that I could not lay my head for my shutters yet alone edit my photos that made me what I am. Yet, I am glad. I am glad that His tests on me were only meant for me to look for the inner me that long screamed in many ways and many types.

I ran away from it all, children, parents, girlfriend, wife and even myself. I ran away in my Penny Wanny to get a glimpse of myself to get a glimpse of what I became of many things I just keep on and in myself to see the sun rise and set in many ways and many deep inside me wishing that all these would end and make me sane to be me again.


Clock Tower of main town of Fraser's Hill
I walked many miles, I drove many roads, read many articles, recite all I can, kneel down on my prayer mat... Then he met me with her... A person I once knew... Fallen in love all over again and again... Pulling me away high into the skies, into a new chapter in my life.


Love
It really shows that He works in many ways and this time he brought me this angel that to me was reborn right in front of me and we fell in love all over again and again and again till today. She who killed me, revived me and now pulling me up. Slowly I crawl out and slowly I shall stand again.


Love makes things happen
My shutter which is a part of me, a part of my soul again felt happy, again felt there was a purpose for it to remain with me, to shoot life again, to shoot love.


In love again
I felt alive and alive again!!


My sun, rain, moon and everything in between
And when I was looking for the stars under the moonlight, I found my sun shining in front of me with a smile that woke me up from my bad dreams.


All of me
And my worries slowly fades away and passion came back in my life.



And she made me sing again, songs that I would find many meanings in one verse.


Familia
And I kneel again at Almighty Allah for making me find my family.


Priorities
And I kneel again upon Him with tears that are filled with joy because I have slowly learn my priorities that lay growing in front of me.


Remake
Then remake what I have forgotten, what I missed.


Remake
What I long for and protect with my life.


Alhamdu-lillah
And I thank Him with each every prayers and I am proud that he gave me life again, my life shall be.



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Signing off
Daddy Rain
11/08/2014 @ 0008

1 comment:

Nina said...

i love you till Jannah :D miss you so much